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| the challenge of being alive.
it has been a very complicated month.
life in it's own right- is not worth it.
the point has been lost amongst the days of work.
i keep coming to the question "what is the point?"
seems somewhat ridiculous.
to live life so selfishly.
all i think about is myself.
with no consideration to others
muchtheless god.
if i dare call him that.
my bitterness has built to the point where
i could become a hermit and be fine.
sometimes i long for the days of living on the streets.
sometimes i long for love.
sometimes i long for the days where i had no friends.
no consideration of family
and no care for a god.
all seasons come and go.
and this season i feel very:
unloved, uncaring, unsympathetic
spiteful, useless... so forth.
i just wish this year would end early.
this brings me to the thought of being in a car and driving.
when the turn comes you just go straight. sit on the tracks.
you hear the rattling and the yells. the horn. the engine.
man. life is such a funny thing. | | |
| holidays have lost there meaning long ago.
how do we relate a bunny and eggs to easter?
fertility. and pagan gods.
it's wierd, how christians used to pawn themselves off to- not get killed.
they would celebrate around the same time as the pagan celebration
to not be caught and killed.
then there is the arguement, "economically sound"
every 2 months or so there is a big holiday to celebrate
to keep our economy flowing, yeah, i somewhat believe that.
because i don't believe that jesus was born in the winter.
and i don't believe he was crucified on easter.
don't consider this blasphemas. but i do believe in the
fact that he died for my sins overall.
these holidays are for "rememberance" of what he did.
but in all actuality (as we all know) we should be remembering Him
daily. and not really only take one day of the year to appreciate Him.
all the small details of christianity doesn't really matter to me.
it can be solved later.
the church needs to take in it's own flock rather then turning away.
we need to brake our legs and realize no one is perfect.
not all we believe may be in another christians vocabulary
and same with them ours.
but the details don't matter.
be with God. live for HIM alone.
i guess this is just another silly rant.
but i give this rant twice a year.
easter and christmas.
christians are silly.
it's funny how christianity has become a religion to most.
when we fought so hard to get away from it.
non-denominational is a denomination.
unity is no longer in a churches vocabulary. | | |
| - Your Hand In Minethoughts of the day.
new job.
new friends.
new music.
new responsibilities.
i miss old friends.
i miss being capable of not planning
not budgeting.
not worrying.
not caring.
not being self conscience about things.
but life is still amazing.
God you are amazing.
i don't speak with you enough.
i always say this. i don't think
i will ever talk to you enough.
but i definitely need to go to church
and read my bible.
write more. study more. love more.
concentrate soley on you.
i cuss to much- maybe not verbally
but definitely in my heart.
i am not sure how this is going
to work out. i guess i'll be in
sacramento a lot longer then i thought.
with more responsibilities then i thought.
with better friends then i thought.
andrew your amazing.
i know i tell you a lot and screw around a lot.
but you are an amazing blessing.
even though you wear bono glasses, i can forgive you
i mean, they are only 15 dollars.
i need a road trip.
i need funds period.
how am i going to pay rent this month?
haha, man life is going to be very hard for the next
couple months.
i need to save enough for an extra month of tour (if i can't do work on the road)
not including a new laptop and also i need
to repair my car.
my brothers hospital bills.
my insurance.
new tires.
food (we are out).
i need LIFE!!!!!! | | |
| so this is me.
i haven't quite found myself, yet.
but i know you have the best for me.
surprisingly enough. no matter how much i miss los angeles
i know once i get there i'll miss sacramento.
life is amazing.
God is amazing.
love.
jer. | | |
| jesus, i love you?
jesus... i love you.
jesus, i love you.
wow, so one day as i have promised before i will be able to hold this meaning to heart. but that day isn't anytime soon. and i am no where close to understanding the phrase that pays. jesus, i love you.
you have truley blessed me.
i only hope to bless you back even the slightest portion if possible from me.
i fail. but you prevail.
you are faithful.
you are there.
you are my steady love.
and i, your beloved.
your creation
you love me as i am.
you have called me chosen
for your kingdom
UNASHAMED to call me your own
you are worthy.
you are almighty
allLOVING
allENCAPSULING
allKNOWING
although i have friends down here.
you are the truest of them.
and i thank you for that.
now that that is over with- anyone have some funyans and pepsi?
i am starved.
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